Keep Pressing On..

These last few weeks have been a real trial for me. Certain things I've faced... that I feel like I didn't face very well. That I could've done better but I didn't necessarily fail them either. I just wished I would've came out MORE on top of things than I did. God really knows how to take care of things in our lives yano?

Tonight we had a W.O.W. rally (Women of Worship) and my pastor's wife said something that really made start thinking about how far I wanted to go/grow in God. She said, "YOu need to start stepping into unfamiliar territory. Start doing things that you don't normally do and watch God work in your life". I'm sure this doesn't really reach a lot of people, but to me... it was exactly what I needed to hear. I'm to comfortable where I am right now. No one knows that... no one knows what I'm fighting when I'm fighting it. Everyone just assumes that things are just perfect in my life and that I have it made. No one knows what I have/had to go through to get to the place where I am.

Both relationships that I was in... Jeremy & Brandon. They were in the will of God... but only for a season. Mistakes had taken place... yeah that's what happens.. but I wouldn't BE where I am right now if I hadn't made those mistakes... & taken those chances on love. I believe that God had to let me learn things the HARD way in order to get me to start seeing things his way. He knows what he's doing! Everything works together according to his plan & purpose! :)

I love the Lord! I just want to tell everyone that!


"Praises to the one who saves us, through his blood he gave us life and now we've come! EVERYONE!!!"

Give God some GLORY & HONOR for the THINGS he's done in your life!!!

The Unfailing Reality of Past Decisions

This past week I was granted the priviledge of going back east to visit my family and friends. It was a great week! I had a lot of fun. I was ready to come back home to California until the day I had to come back. One small minor detail changed my desires and thought patterns. I'm not sure how it will work out or if anything will ever come of it... but I really really would like for it to. I haven't really felt so sure about wanting something like this to work out in a while. BUT if God wants it to... it will.

Anyways... I could kick myself for the stupid decisions I make sometimes and for the ones I particularly made with this "small minor detail".

*le sigh*....