Sunday, December 28, 2008

What to say... .?

God,

I just want to say thank you so much. I just want to say how much I love you. When I was embarrassed and ashamed to say that I love you... I'm sorry. When I couldn't stand up for what I believed in and let the world take me down a different road... I'm sorry. When I let petty things come in between me and my work for you, Lord... I'm sorry. I'm soooo thankful that you kept me this year. I'm soo thankful that at the end of the day I know that you are going to continue keeping me.

God... you were there for me when I was at my lowest point. You showed me that you ARE God. You showed me what a little faith and trust can do. You taught me... that even the world leaves you hurting and longing for more.

"Sometimes I think I'm in control... and I act so foolishly. Facing problems on my own.. Lord I don't know what's best for me."

When I was too unworthy to come to you... You came to me. When all my friends were gone... you showed me I was not alone. You love me for who I am... not who I can be. You think I'm already perfect... not disformed. You show me, you teach me, you love me, you lead me, you comfort me, you provide for me, you hide me, and you walk with me.

This year I have not been on my best behavior. This year... I've done what I wanted, when I wanted, how I wanted, and where ever I wanted. But, God... I wasn't happy. I wasn't satisfied. I learned this year... that @ the end of it all... only YOU can satisfy my soul. It's only you, Lord.



It's not mine.... It's only you.

Thank you so much... for breaking down my walls of bitterness and anger. Thank you for teaching me to open my heart again. It's been so hard. I know I will never be who I once was... but I'd like to be someone new. A mighty woman of valor. A true lady. A true Woman of God. I don't need anyone's acceptance... but Your's. You're my king... my prince... my love and my friend.

I'm looking forward to spending the rest of my life... being with you.