Saturday, July 28, 2007

I'm fat...


I'm so fat... seriously. I've not lost anymore weight. I'm just staying the same and I'm not happy about it. It's killing me. It's causing me to develop very unhealthy habits... that I don't like. I'm sad right now. It'll be a while before I'm happy again I'm sure. It just seems like everytime I decide to get my head up above the "water" something comes along that keeps me from coming up for a breath. It's killing me. Eventually I'm going to stay under and never come back up if I can't fight through this. I have way to much going on in my life. It literally stresses me out to go/be ANYWHERE. :( I wish things were different. Oh well... I made my bed. Now I have to lie in it.

1 comment:

Courtney said...

First of all, I think you're beautiful. But secondly, and probably more importantly, I totally feel your pain. I feel fat and unattractive and stressed out and I'm just realizing it..and it's hitting hard. I hate it. There has to be another way but I feel so stuck. I relate to you 100%